where's mine
As i look around me everyday, i see people who all are very good in one thing or another. It doesn't have to be academice-wise. It can be in any aspect. But everybody else all have something that makes them 'better' than others in some way, be it a kind of status/name, or an area which they are realy good at. I have seen theirs, only to be blind to mine.I just don't know but i haven't found it or created it yet. I am surrounded everyday by 'leaders' as you call it. Be it councillors, SLs, presidents, commitee members and so on. I look at them, then turn back to look at myself, i seem so
insignificant
compared to them. What makes me different? What makes me shine from this huge crowd of people? I know that there will have to be some people who shine and some who don't. But it sucks being the one who doesn't. I'm not anybody. I'm just another random person in this world.
CO doesn't help either. I knoew its selfish and greedy to want something in return by helping your cca out even though you're not the only one but last year i designed the poster, i stayed up late to finish it. But of course, i was 'supposed' to do it, and i don't get anything back. I gave up so much time for co. But until now, when i'm a sec 4, almost graduating, i don't even have more than 6 cca points!
^^
I'm nothing special am I? I don't really have any redeeming qualities that makes me different from the crowd do I? I try not to sucumb to being 'one of the crowd', but i've been trying long enough and my strength is waning. Should I just accept it and be happier being contented with being one of the crowd?
Maybe I keep on thinking that others don't give me a chance to be different, but all along its been myself who has been hindering me all along.
No, this post is not to gain sympathy or to get me comments on what i'm good at blah blah blah. Its just to vent out my frustrations of what i've been feeling like for a long time.
posted by Jame @ 7:56 PM
11 Comments:
-hugs- you are special to all of us. =)
jh
jaime u may not know but u really shine in people's hearts. (mine at least) :)... love you! -hugs-
-caina
hey jaime. <3. i know we had a convo like this. well. to me. i cannot actually think of how i shine until u told me i was PR... hmm. guess we're all quite oblivious to how we really shine. and i guess to me PR is also a very subtle thing. i think everyone's special because of the things they do/what they think. u may think similarly with someone else. but NOT ALL ur thoughts are the same. not the same mannerisms whatsoever. well jaime, ur polite. u've got GREAT manners. my mum took a liking to u immediately. u're so cute and u've got a good figure. (believe me!), ur good at convincing ppl. (to buy bsd tix?) ur strong. and not easily persuaded to think sth other than what u really think. ur strong mentally. that's good. (sth i dun have. argh) ur special cos many ppl love u. just like me. (: it's not a thing to be insignificant and another to be "seen and heard" cos. actually. everything when put in perspective is a very lonely role. hrm. sometimes it's quite a farce.. so it all really depends dear. (: LOVE YOU~
i like you alot ! ^^
hey jaime, everyone has some parts of them that outshine the rest. The fact that you are surrounded by 'leaders'(which I would totally like to clarify that none of us are any more special than anyone else) make you a leader too in some way isnt it. So many leaders depend on you to give them your warmth and precious friendship! Janice, Daph, and all those whom I don't even noe! And not to mention myself - after all, who gives me a choking hug but you, Jaime! Dearie, stop thinking so much, you're pretty wonderful already :)
*huugs with lurrve* espoir [tiff]
hey jaime.
i'm sure there're many pple out there who rlly appreciate you (: i do.
melissa
Hey again... Look at it this way, you find someone special because they are different from the normal, which is of course you yourself. You are already so used to yourself that you can't feel how special you are.BUt the very fact that you find that everyone around you is special implies that you must be special too right? Else there wld be someone that you find is not special cos he/she is exactly like you. Your clone. Impossible right...
And relax. It's ok not to lead. Look at some great people like erm Albert Eistein for example. He didn't lead a country or anything like that. He cld have but didn't. He chose to make an impact to the world that will last forever. Leading will only help the people that are here now. I don't think I will run for elections too in nushs. Too busy :P But no matter what you are special; it is just that you are not conscious about it. You can in fact be a very good leader but have not been spotted yet. You still have such a loong way to go in life. You can even choose to lead in another way.
And no matter what, You are always special to meeeeee ;) In fact I find you quite special, really...since the moment I saw you
Greggz
hi jaime! don't be so sad. everyone in this place is DIFFERENT. you have ur own qualities and others have theirs. i'm sure people around you can see that. like how you see theirs. do you know you're actually a very talented and pretty girl? really! you've got nice fingers too. yuqin and i noticed that! cheer up! love ya!
heyy!im listening to hongmei!! :D:D::D hahhaa ur dizi very nice!! =D oh mann soo nicee (: (:
You are so damned special Jame, now don't go all miserable on me. I don't get to talk to you anymore, but I still lafu you. There're a lot of people, that love you, and lots of friends you have. You're beautiful, you're slender, you're simply wonderfully likeable, and I demand you do not think of yourself like this. You ARE wonderful.
and now if you don't see this, I hope you do. XD;
Oh, other than your Gseed layout. XDDD
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