Throughout our lives, we will always meet new people, make new friends and along the way, forget about those that we met long ago. Do you still remember in Primary Six, when you passed around autograph books and asked everyone to write their contacts down? Do you remember how many "Friends Forever" "Don't forget me!" you wrote on their books or how many you have in yours? In p6 when close friends promised not to drift apart when they scattered to different schools, how many of those promises were kept?
I didn't keep many.
Now, once again I'm confronted with the same circumstances. Even though most of us will be going to to same school, we'll be in different classes and we will drift apart all the same. In these 4 years at Nanyang, I have met many people and made friends with people I thought I never would. But even in the same building, some gaps have widened, and some have narrowed. With some, whenever I meet them in the hallways, I would just smile, embarassed, and give a tiny wave, while remembering the times that we were actually able to hold a heartfelt conversation for more than 20 minutes.
I suppose we all have to make an effort if we want to keep a relationship alive. But how can we if we are to make new friends in order not to live in the past, or to avoid being labelled as afraid of changes? Nothing is for free, just as everything is not eternal.
I don't want to lose all these bonds that I have forged with everyone. I dread the day when the binds that hold us together, that has intertwined our lives together, break and tear apart.
Now I look back and wonder why I was so upset that day when I had to leave Rosyth. I look back, numbed, and forgetting all the intense emotions, the sorrow that I experienced when I had to leave my teachers and my friends. I hate this numbness that I feel, I never ever want to feel it again. I don't want to be graduating from JC and looking back at my secondary school life and wondering who I thought I'd miss or why I'd miss them.
I don't want a happy ending
Because
I don't want it to end
posted by Jame @ 9:26 PM
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