where's mine
As i look around me everyday, i see people who all are very good in one thing or another. It doesn't have to be academice-wise. It can be in any aspect. But everybody else all have something that makes them 'better' than others in some way, be it a kind of status/name, or an area which they are realy good at. I have seen theirs, only to be blind to mine.I just don't know but i haven't found it or created it yet. I am surrounded everyday by 'leaders' as you call it. Be it councillors, SLs, presidents, commitee members and so on. I look at them, then turn back to look at myself, i seem so
insignificant
compared to them. What makes me different? What makes me shine from this huge crowd of people? I know that there will have to be some people who shine and some who don't. But it sucks being the one who doesn't. I'm not anybody. I'm just another random person in this world.
CO doesn't help either. I knoew its selfish and greedy to want something in return by helping your cca out even though you're not the only one but last year i designed the poster, i stayed up late to finish it. But of course, i was 'supposed' to do it, and i don't get anything back. I gave up so much time for co. But until now, when i'm a sec 4, almost graduating, i don't even have more than 6 cca points!
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I'm nothing special am I? I don't really have any redeeming qualities that makes me different from the crowd do I? I try not to sucumb to being 'one of the crowd', but i've been trying long enough and my strength is waning. Should I just accept it and be happier being contented with being one of the crowd?
Maybe I keep on thinking that others don't give me a chance to be different, but all along its been myself who has been hindering me all along.
No, this post is not to gain sympathy or to get me comments on what i'm good at blah blah blah. Its just to vent out my frustrations of what i've been feeling like for a long time.
posted by Jame @ 7:56 PM
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